I am Sheila, 41 years young, married to the most understanding man in the world and mother of three wonderful men, ages 7, 10 and 25. I was given this site by one of my Facebook friends. Wonderful lady thought I may find it helpful with my difficulties.
For 6 years I have suffered many ailments from fibromyalgia to incessant sinus infections, IBS and others. I feel.... well... displaced in myself, like my body is no longer my own. I'm irritable, tired and miserable most of the time but I try to hide it with my shining personality. I laugh even when I don't feel like it, joke about almost everything and am generally thought of as a fun, outgoing lady. Problem is, I have trouble going outside.... I'm afraid most of the time and I guess Im masking whats really going on because I don't understand it.
When I was a child, I had a connection to my mother that was amazing. She would think of calling me in for some reason and minutes later I'd be in, asking if she called. I would actually HEAR her calling me before she actually did. I've trusted my instincts all my life and have avoided many hardships because of this. Then there was the first time I ever saw my present husband. I looked at him and said my friend, only after seeing him from across the room, that I would marry him. My friend thought I was crazy, the man was "obviously gay". I had to laugh 16 months later when we DID get married because she bet me that we would be divorced in 6 months. We have been together for 8 years now!
I will probably stay quiet and reading for a while, till I get a better feel for this site but I already feel at home here.....
